I had just finished writing about fear and facing it this morning when Anna came in from the living room saying there was a scratching sound coming from the chimney. Libby and I were doing a puzzle at the table and gave it little thought. Lib suggested Anna hang out with us. Anna relented and returned to her cozy spot on the couch with Ruby all curled up in her lap. Three episodes later she was back at the table demanding I do something about it.
I looked at Libby and then at Anna. I’ve had a fear of birds since I was a little girl. Without knowing where my fear came from, I’ve mastered avoiding them and keeping distance from birds at all costs. Sue laughed when she saw my Christmas tree in the kitchen adorned with glass birds of silver and gold. I told the girls it was probably nothing and lifted myself from my chair and went to show them how brave I could be. I heard the noise within seconds and was instantly freaked out. Kyle calls me his farm girl. “Ha” I thought to myself, “some farm girl I am.”
So, I called my knight in shining armor at work and he laughed, not at me, at the situation. He told me he had just finished reading my piece on facing fear and couldn’t help seeing the comedy that was playing out at our farm. We’re quickly becoming more like a funny farm each and every day. He asked if I wanted him to call a pet rescuer. I said no way! I pictured my long dead father rolling over in his grave, and saying, “C’mon on Jennifer.” I hatched a plan and shared with Kyle. He was hesitant, and now as I sit and type I’m feeling as though my plan might not have been the best route to take but so you know, the girls are back in the living room and the sounds have ceased in the fireplace.
If I had been willing to face my fears head on, I might have gotten a flashlight out and looked up into to the chimney to look my adversary eye to eye. I wasn’t, fear won out this time. I proudly adorned the role of chicken and took a different route. I guess you could say, just like everyone else, I have a bit of growing left to do.